Saturday, February 6, 2016


                Thinking about popping off, being drag by my emotional days makes my soul cold and blue. Those days was full of sorrows. Sometimes we have these uncertain situations that it seems like you are not enjoying it. That the whole burdens of the world was on you. I ask myself how I can get out from these and go to a life that has no troubles. Perhaps some of us has experience these and maybe still on this stage. That you just wanted to give up. But the Lord reminded me one of some story in the Bible when Jesus Walks on Water in the book of Matthew 14:22-33. In the story peter wants to walk with Jesus in the water. He did for a moment but then fell when he saw the strong wind and the waves that cause him to sink. In our life we have this wind and waves that represents our problems, uncertain situations and circumstances that make us discourage. But you know what amazed me most in this story is that peter shouted “Saved me Lord”, as we know Peter was a fisher man before the Lord Jesus meet him and became a disciple of Jesus. Therefore Peter knows how to swim. But for me I was reminded to call unto the Lord because most of the time we choose not to for we tend to rely on ourselves that we can surpass all the situation we are taking to, perhaps because we can say that you already got into this before and at least now you know what to do. I was reminded of this verse

I called you so often, but you wouldn’t come.
    I reached out to you, but you paid no attention. You ignored my advice
    and rejected the correction I offered..
 Proverbs 1:24-25
             When would we say that we cannot handle our own problems, the time that we would shout from the deepest of our hear LORD SAVE ME! The Lord is just waiting for us to come to Him. He gave us this free will to do whatever we wants. He is full of love, grace and kindness, we don’t deserved His love, grace and faithfulness.

"Now repent of your sins and turn to God,
 so that your sins may be wiped away."
 Acts 3:19

 God is waiting for us to repent our sins. In the story of the Parable of the Lost Son (Luke 15:11-32) we are the lost son the king long to come back. I praise and thank God His word that makes me realize that God loves us all. I thank the Holy Spirit for driving me to my conviction and write these words. To God be all the glory!

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Monday, January 25, 2016


Dulian, Zamboanga City

I will not stop till every tribe and nation bows before Him". A promise that I committed to the Lord. But looking into my self right now seems to be far from who I am before. I've been covered by those contentment, relaxation, happiness and most of all selfishness.

 I was discouraged by those co christian who talked about me at my back, thinking thatp they were my leaders supposed to be followed. I was dismayed knowing that the same christian cousin was really different from who he was in church and in home. I find it hard to believe if there's really a christian existing in this world. Me myself can say I'm not to be called one. Months passed, no devotional, and no prayer. But I ended up hanging, I don't know what to do. I am so desperately sad. So sad. Very sad. Something is missing. And that is God. His loving presence. 

We may be discourage a lot of time. Think of Jesus. He has a lot of reason to feel the same. But He chooses to be not. In fact He choose to love us than hating us.


Monday, March 9, 2015

I got it, he push it

Captured from Western Mindanao State
University Campus
Around 9:33 pm March 08 2015 in our Jr church, we the youth core of our church had a meeting if we will go through with the Sunday service.
By the way it was the month of January when our Senior Pastor decided to finish his contract with the church, and we the youth core are the one who take the responsibility with the Vesper Sunday service. Of course he had mentored us before and a lot of thing we've learned from them together with his wife. It was a awesome feeling that I encountered them sharing thoughts and struggles, fears and joy. But I now accept the fact that people come and go. We all have our different calling.
So much for that it's been 2 months, and we the youth core are the one who handle d the Vesper Service it was good at first,  good number of people who attend and mostly youth. Several Sundays pass.  We have notice that the attendees are become little in number. Same faces I see. The music team are having the burdens because of the uncommitted team member who goes and lost, pause and play. Depending on their mood. And we also do not have our Pastor to be the speaker of the night what happen is that we invite speakers to preach the word of God. This are the few burdens we have. and the biggest burden is I couldn't sense the Holy Spirit in us. 
So we decided to ask each others opinion if we will go through or not. Most of us speak out and answered YES to stop the Sunday vesper service. I shared to them the Story of Mary and Martha in the book of Luke. That we are like Martha very busy in the Ministry but not in the present of God. unlike Mary who discover the most precious thing that should be done first before any other. Because I had notice that our personal devotion with the Lord had already gone because of the ministry that we had. That is why the result come to past.
Also, We lack in consolidation but I believe it all because of our personal relationship with the Lord. 

As I have said, most of us agreed except to one. That it seems he is not satisfied with the reasons, to stop the Sunday Vesper Service. And I can see it in the eyes of that person that there 's something bothering.  But what I've noticed is this. He speak "What is our purpose? Why are we doing this? is it to glorify God?", "If that so , why are you bother to the attendees? why bother if we do not have the speaker?  We can glorify God through our selves ." he added.

Now I understand people decide base on their perspective, base on what they usually do and base on their lifestyle. Because if he thinks that people are not to be worried then he is not concern about them. Who are those people? these are "the Lost", longing for an answers to their thousands questions, this are the lost that longing of "God's love".  Before the Lord Jesus Christ leave this earth He instructed us to GO AND MAKE DISCIPLES.  And this one is my concern. And why not go back to have a small group so that there is this intimate relationship with each other which I experienced in my old church,  I grew my Christian life there and also started to disciple. But he kept on yelling his head. That it's not about that. 

I understand now that the moment we did not experience such things it is hard for us to understand. In sharing and teaching it is better to let them feel, see and experience for them to understand fully. Just like the man that I am telling you earlier , he did not experienced real Discipleship and making disciple that is why it is hard for him to fully understand the real essence of being Christ Follower. Following Christ is not just worshiping God with your self alone. God want us all to be save to be with him. The Lord love us "All". 

But I got his point, still he push his point, but one thing I can say is the it is hard to bent a metal if we will not put it on fire. It is hard to cut without touching it,. One thing I've learn "Discipleship is hard to teach but simple when we start to live with it."